I'm working, yay. It's a good job: hard work, physically demanding at times, emotionally demanding at others, spiritually demanding again and again. I've spent roughly 40 hours at this 'new' job. It's puppy love to a great degree. Today I am off. I had an interview this morning for a new job. Same type of work, different environment. Crushed.
New tech. Low gravity. Electrical outlet. Posting, pasting, haste wasting. Aging. Downers? Dirty work. Self-worth. What am I worth to you?
Two things: Doing what God wants. Second thing: Placing my trust in God. God knows what I need before I ask for it. All of my needs are met as I surrender my will to fulfill God's purpose for the Earth.
It's hard sometimes, not knowing. Faith is such an important thing. You can try as you may to remove yourself from negative situations, but really I think the main thing is interpretation. The Bible talks about the armour of Christ, and I do feel protected from many influences. The Hindu scriptures talk about associations with other devotees as being an essential part of their religion. This helps them maintain purity. The Jehovah's Witnesses exhibit the same type of behaviour: shunning memebers who act against the doctrines of their society. Speaking of the Witnesses, I think the evangelicals who I had accepted into my home for Bible study have decided to cease our talks.
Last week, I had a shift during my usual meeting time with the Jehovah's Witnesses and was expecting to hear from David on Thursday to discuss an appropriate time to re-convene. I have yet to hear from him. Luckily he did assist me with my Bible reading strategy. I had previously tried to read the Bible from cover to cover. David suggested I start with the book of Matthew and finish the New Testament. I've been reading about a chapter or two a day ever since!
My Hindu readings have slowed way down. It is a very demanding discipline, wrought with beauty and explanation. Since I've been recently smitten, I should hope to learn new teachings on life as a householder, or even better: actually experiencing the life of a householder. I'm not sure what's in store, I really have been taking it one day at a time. I'm tempted to whine about a lack of close relationships and it is true, my closest relationships are few and far between. My situation resonates with the information I received from Adulthood and Aging. Older men tend to have one person in their inner circle of social relationships: their wife. Now if I can only figure out how to wifey this lady...
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